Each And Every Day brings me closer to seeing what has infected or grown within one of my lungs. Facing the same disease that has affected so many in my life over its span is scary, hard and not knowing what will come next is even worse. Never knowing whether you will cough up something, loose breath, or just drop from weakness is crazy. Yet so far I am holding my own since they found what ever it may be in one lung, and told me it is isolated to that lung. That is about the only good point so far in this discovery and the news of the illness!
Cancer has taken my Grandfather, on my maternal side way back in 1970, it has struck down my real father in 1984, got mom in 1991 and in between took my step-father in 1990, now it seems I must travel the roads they did with the same disease. My Second wife had cancer also but hers was breast cancer and she is still with us today. Thank God for that miracle is all I can say. At least someone survived through it so far, and that’s a plus. Yet, cancer hits different parts of the human body, and for me it has hit the lungs, which on the survival ratings, is the worse one to get, only 16.4 % survive what i have. So the battle begins, I believe come Friday of this week with them taking a part of the mass by biopsy. Then I will know exactly what I am fighting and the severity of it I am sure.
Each day I wake up thankful for being here still and stopping to look back on my life, to review what I did and didn’t do in it. I can’t change anything that happened before I was old enough to realize what was going on and could control my own destiny, but, I made the best with what I was handed I think. I can’t change who my parents were, how they divorced or who replaced my father. I can’t change the physical and mental abuse i suffered as a kid, nor can I change the fact I was given away by my mother and then handed back to her when I fought against it. I can’t change the beatings with pipes,fireplace pokers and shovels, or the throwing me down stairs, or yanking from my bed for beatings when I was a kid. But, I survived those too, funny how that happens isn’t it? I survived being Unwanted in school and at home to move on to surrogate parents who helped me survive and raised me partially and helped to make me who I became. I survived the short stay in the Army, the Army National Guard and then the longer stay in the US Navy, a job that I am very proud of surviving and doing. I survived a nasty divorce and missed my daughters for years and survived false accusations too. Now I must face the road my parents faced as they died, and I am doing so with grace, pride and strength gathered from friends, relatives and my second wife. God Bless her for all she is and does for me, I love her deeply.
Time to list my stories for reading by all and hope some will read them and remember me in someway anyway. I am no Hemingway, I am no Dan Brown or Robert Ludlum either, I am a guy who takes short incidents in his life and careers and makes them into short stories and writes poetry and murder mysteries for fun and to make a few bucks on the side for my wife, who sells them on KIndle e-Books on Amazon.
Please read a few if you can, I know times are rough in America and money is tight;
My List of stories:”Disappearing Hams”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DZPFKYS
“The Burner Man”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DWYZE9I
“The Importance of Christmas”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DS5LUNA
“Dark Secrets Overcome”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DJR1OKG
“Confrontations With Mom”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DC3BQK0
“The House on Phoenix Avenue”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D910XBS
“Children center Lesson and Years (Hamden,Connecticut)”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D6VAS6Q
“The Chase and Ending”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D6GD8ZY
“Adult Poems of Romance and Lust”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D5L684I
The Project Murders, in Broad-View Acres—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3QZZU8
“Tick, Tock The Infernal Clock”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CDU0FIC
“Fishing Days with Dad”—http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CXYI8MS
“Abraham- A Man of Contradictions”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CWNZ3Y6
“Rusty The Beagle”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CQ3S4LG
“Three Mandolin Murder Mysteries in One!”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00COQNJ38
“Wails of an Attention Deficit and Hyperactive Child”——-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CO92VOS
“Three Navy Stories”——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CNW9C7U
“God Damn It!”——–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CMXD1TU
“Women are in Charge!”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CLXBS4Q
“WHy Hide It?”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CK7F696
“The Poems of W.M.M.”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CHQPNQQ
“National Guard Heros——http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CIH88HU
“The Holy Land Murder”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CCCZQ8A
“Romance,Sex and Fools”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CH6VX1U
“What Really Happened to Alex?”—-http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGPDBX0
“The Northern Woods Murders”—–http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CGMRXDC
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